I have never watched the Goss.elins and their highly publicized life on TV. I've heard my family talk about them. There's a fascination with them because we're from the same area and many of the places they visit are old haunts of ours.
I've heard about their messy marital problems, but never really paid attention.
But now, since getting Net.flix and being able to stream the show, it's captured my attention.
And that's okay. I'm a grown-up, I can process their "quirkiness" against a lifetime of experiences and morals.
But Andrew is also fascinated. And last night it came to light why.
He wants siblings.
He's asking why we can't do the same procedure they did.
Or why we can't go to the "donation center" and adopt a child.
Infertility is a FAMILY issue. It's something that profoundly affects every single person in the family unit. Not just the parents.
How do I explain infertility to an almost-7 year old? One who looks at a couple on TV and their miraculous delivery despite fertility problems? How do I explain to him that those options aren't open to us? That we couldn't afford IVF? That adoption is out of our reach because of our financial collapse last year?
I tell him to pray. God listens to him. And I told him about the doctor's appointment on Tuesday and the medicine we'll be talking about that might help me get pregnant.
My trusting child. As soon as he heard "pills", he determined that we will be getting pregnant soon with the help of the medicine.
I pray that he's right. My heart breaks to see him so disappointed.