2.11.2010

Tailspin

Emotional eating. My nemesis.

These last 10 days have been so hard! My motivation has disappeared. There's a hole in my heart that food isn't filling, even though I'm trying desperately to make it so.

In my head, I know it doesn't work. But I keep trying, like an idiot, to stop the emptiness.

macandcheeseanimalcrackersnutellagreenbeanspeanutbuttercheezits.......

It was just this endless parade of food last night. It would have been way worse had I not "phoned a friend" and spent two hours catching up with her.

I think so much of this stems from Christine's moving away. She filled a spot in my life so perfectly. It's doubtful that anyone could fill in that gap. Or that, if they could, I'd want them to. I just miss her. Andrew misses her kids and cries about them every day. This is an adjustment that's going to take some time.

So, looking forward, today I'm going to attempt a liquid-only diet (I'd say clear liquid but I must have my coffee and creamer) to hopefully clear some of the junk out of my body. I'm going to get on the Wii Fit and do some yoga. And I'm going to pray for God to fill that hole in my heart.

It's difficult to reverse a tailspin. But today I'm gonna try.

4 comments:

  1. Take care of yourself and don't let these small deviations to miss your ultimate goal of being more fit and healthy..
    stay motivated dear :)

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  2. Give yourself some grace. The most successful diet I was ever on (which I should probably do again!) was one where I took Sunday off. I decided on my own to do it...Sunday was my social day b/c all of our best friends went to church w/us & it was 32 miles away...we led the praise team...often taught Sunday school...we usually didn't get home until 3p.m. So that I could eat w/everyone else & ppl wouldn't always be catering to me & my needs, I took Sunday off of my diet.

    It was the best thing I ever did! It was a mental & emotional boost...looking forward to a ROLL on Sunday spurred me on during the week! I lost 28lbs in 10 weeks!

    Hmmmm....Maybe I should do it again! lol

    Blessings, Kim<><

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  3. I'm sorry Christine moved away. It's hard when such a good friend leaves and you can't be close physically like you once were. I'm still waiting for one of my bffs to come home from Arizona.

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  4. *hugs* Friendships can change us, but like the other posters have said...keep in mind your ultimate goal.

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