I've done a complete 180 in the last few days, from dreading the Big Bad Due Date to actually anticipating it.
Because I'm planning to take that day and make it in honor of my Leila, but instead of moping, I'll be honoring her in a positive way.
By helping someone else.
So many other Glory Mommies do this:
Lea and her angel wings,
Bree and her butterflies,
Stephanie and her t-shirts (which are on my Christmas list),
Deborah and her hankies,
Kelly and her memory books and bears,
Celia and her blankets and hats,
Heather and her blog that offers support to new angel mommies,
my girl Anita and her amazing photography skills ~ without which, I'd have horrible memories of my baby. I love that I don't remember her, just the pictures you took of her.
And I know I'm missing a few others out there.
I think of these amazing women, and I finally understand.
They get through their grief by giving back. It's the only way they can make some sense of their loss. A healing balm.
And I'm taking my cue from them.
Leila, your due date is going to be a celebration of you. And I know in my heart that you're much happier with that decision than you would be with me staying in bed all day and crying.
It will be a day with tears, but also a day with smiles, hugs, and "thank you's". A day to look forward to.
Thank you to my examples. I love you ladies, and I wouldn't be where I am without your support.